What a WONDERFUL weekend it was !!
Celebrating the 4th of July with Family & Friends .
Family I hadn't seen for almost 17 YEARS!! Way , WAAAY too long to without seeing family that lives less than 45 min away !!
Celebrated the 4th at cousin Trisha's place with my Aunt Jeanie & Uncle Bill I hadn't seen since our wedding in 1996 ( except they actually came to see me a couple days after my surgery on May 3rd ) , and my cousin Trisha that I hadn't seen since Jordans FIRST bday in 1993 !!
Jeanie brought a whole bunch of old pics of me & Laura & James with Grandma Burnett & with all of the Arthurs ........ all those pics are what was "frozen" in my mind ---- all those people were frozen in time in my mind & it was SOOO strange to see a current pic of my Grandma Burnett , because , to ME, she was still the Grandma in those pics -- hadn't aged in my mind-- and when I saw the pic of her taken only a month ago , I cried .
She is 91 now. The last time I saw her ...... Jordan was under a year old .
And I cry .
How did this happen?? What a FOOL I have been that I had not kept in contact with my FAMILY ?!?
So I cry .
Because I don't HAVE an answer to those questions . There IS no good reason , not REASON at ALL !!
Ever since my mother proclaimed her new-found "RELIGION" ( I SHOULD say CULT ) to the entire extended family & my sister and I followed --- that part of my Family was just........gone.......frozen in time.
And TIME is no respector of persons , it stops for no one -- no matter how HARD we may try to hold on to it......it goes by & it goes on .
The pics that my Aunt gave me I just keep looking through -- over & over again . My mind continues to recall memory after memory I hadn't had for a VERY long , long time --- there were also a bunch of letters that I had written my Grandma & reading those were a HOOT!! More of a " bitter-sweet " experience really , of course they made me cry as well !! ( but of course we all know it does not take much to make ME cry !! LOL) .
I hadn't realized how much I wrote letters to Grandma --- ALOT of them -- and Jeanie told me that she has kept every one & how much she treasured them . That really surprised me , because as I told Jeanie , I never thought she really LIKED me all that much . But that was just Grandmas way , a snooty , snobby , b****.
It was strange to read those letters , to see my handwriting & some of the things I would say .....FUNNY!!! Like one of my letters , at the end I signed it .... " well chow for now purple cow , Love , Jennifer " ----- SHEESH!!
I loved my Grandma & I LOVED when I was able to stay the night at her house , the spare room that she had was so pretty & the room was so nice , I remember feeling like I was a princess in a princess bed . She had a like silver-plated hand mirror & hairbrush set that I would use & pretend that I really WAS a princess.
And all of these memories are just "frozen" in time , I love my Grandma.
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